I have never been wonderful.

I have never been that wonderful

At patience

My heart does not seem to speak this language of

rhythm laced in con

sist

ency

I can't remember 

the last time I stopped to ask for a translation.

I have never been that wonderful

with affection

eager is as eager does 

some how my words have not been enough

I wish you well all day long!

I wished for you that one day I was lost

in a new city

on a whole new continent even!

I was searching and searching for your face in my mind

It was perfect and it made me feel safer

even though you were seas away

with a heart that belonged to another sailor

Being feminine is about obtaining

a delicate 

romantic imagination.

There was so much movement in the clouds today!

My mind kept remembering memories that have yet to happen...

Remember that day we will go swimming

in the Atlantic with rose buds on our lips

and seashells on our knuckles?

Remember that day we will be all caught up in

grey

And we will build sand castles made out of 

pterodactyl bones and cement shapes?

remember that day you couldn't

even

think

you had two left handed feet?

On days that rain I feel like I am just about the most ghostly creature to ever be. 

On days like these I wish I was more wonderful

for you,for you only.